"Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?"
- Isaiah 43:18-19
There are moments, frequent moments, when I feel like I've faltered and I've run out of patience with myself. I see my friends growing around me, sinking in their roots. Not that I haven't grown myself or that a stable career is the "end-all, be-all," but I know in terms of my own academic growth and application, I've sort of plateaued. I find that I'm floundering around, dwelling on what I haven't accomplished, and once again, stuck at a fork in the road. Then I start wondering what His plan is for me...
I can definitely say that if it wasn't for my faith that it would be difficult for me to be patient or optimistic for so long. I've measured myself on other's words and assumptions of me. I've let them knock me down and define who I am, even when I surely know I am not in the wrong.
"Because the Sovereign Lord helps me, I will not be disgraced. Therefore I have set my face like flint, and I know I will not be put to shame. He who vindicates me is near...let him who walks in the dark, who has no light trust in the name of the Lord and rely on his God."
"So do not fear, for I am with you, do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."
“For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
I am told that when you ask God for a virtue like patience, wisdom, or confidence, etc. He will definitely make sure you know the true meaning of it! You learn by intercepting His challenges. Then you're like "God Why!?...Oh, because I asked for it." I know when I have overcome that mountain, this is when He will be glorified.
It is encouraging to remember that He has my back and that he strives to mold me into a righteous person in every way. This is what He does for me. I can surely say this.